Author: UnFathem Cortex

Just a viewer of time and what makes a day. I see and analyze what went before and after. Just looking through the schism of time.

Virtue vs Blatant Ignorance

Have you ever thought that you are the only one with some form of mental instability and would like to find help, but do not know where to turn to? I find that if you are under the influence of hearing voices and seeing things that are not there. That one should go to a doctor and talk things over. He/She may advise you to go to the hospital to be assessed.
This will only take a short time, but the wait might be long as many hospitals are only used for A&E-style approaches.

When you get to see a Psychiatrist, you should talk about your problem and if they think a lengthy stay at that hospital is vital for you to get well. I would advise doing it VOLUNTARILY as you will not be SECTIONED. And your stay may be short.

It is not until they think that you are unwell that you may be Sectioned if you have been in the hospital for some period of time. And are not showing signs of getting well, for instance, you do not wash, for instance, you are loud and ignorant of others.

I myself have spent time in a hospital for a few weeks to a few months but not 6-12 months of stay, the most I have stayed in a hospital was 4-12 weeks.

When I say VIRTUE I mean that you are looking for help. And you will not stop until you can find professional help.

It is others that are Blatantly Ignorant of you having this form of the episode and do not know what to do to help you. You will have to tell them that you are feeling unwell and want to see a doctor in which you want to seek advice about undertaking some form of prescription drug to help alleviate the voices.

Once you are on the correct medication and have been well for x number of days, weeks, months and years. You may one day become intolerant to the drugs and may relapse into hearing voices again. but you will have had a care plan in place and have spoken about the triggers that you acknowledged about what entails you to hear voices or see things that are not actually there.

Maria DB.

For those of you who like to know what has been and will be, you will have to read between the lines of History and Future Tech.

As many of you may know is that many of the ideas of today’s tech were drawn up by Leonardo Di Vinci, as he did draw the idea for a helicopter.

You may also need to know what factors will have an adverse effect on the Environment. As many of the main aspects of a new computer use rare materials and if disposed of could be detrimental to the Environment.

The reason why this is called Maria DB is that it is the bases for this blogging tool.

God’s Peruvian

From time to time since having a mental condition, you are susceptible to having a case of a God Complex, in which the user thinks that they are God.

It only takes one chance of a relapse or first Psychosis, to have this.

I My-Self did not want any doctors or nurses, even passers-by, to have my DNA, meaning When I drank out of plastic cups or ate with cutlery, I would take them with me once finished.

Also, you will be stating what is good and bad with the world.

You will also see that MONEY is the ROOT of all EVIL.

Looking Back

If you had to live this life once again and you could only change one aspect of it, what would it be and why?

I wander around in my mind most of the time and wonder if I truly should do the things that I had done. Even if it was for the experience.

For those of you who are looking to see if you can find this mystery being, and work out what was said from the start to now, you may assume that the language on this site has changed drastically. And some of the errors that you would perceive to be wrong, will now be edited and redone.

I will be ever grateful if you would read what had been said and contact us to see if things could be better done.

Instance vs. Virtue

If you are like me and have a mental condition, that will be for life. Then you will know that I suffer from Schizophrenia.

And to see a Virtue in somebody, takes time to navigate the mind and instigate a welcome.

This is about being an Introvert, and knowing that if somebody is like this means that it takes time to acknowledge a welcome and to work as a group.

It means that the instance that one is about to be an Extrovert, they have welcomed that person or group into their lives.

It faulter’s on the notion that they are ok to be around and that they know that no harm will come to them.

Yet we cannot be both Introverts or Extroverts. As this is not what we are able to do.

Yes there can be times that we are extravert when our initial understanding of ourselves are introverts. It just does not compute if we are either.

That is why when we are about to meet somebody new that it takes time for us to have a conversation and understand what is being said. We as a person with this condition, think not once but many times, as what to say. As we do not wont to offend or get the meaning incorrectly, to be able to talk about our feelings, takes time, and we are only able to talk about it to persons we have known for years.

That is why for each Instance of meeting and greeting, We need to see a virtue in that person before we can become friends.

Tablets vs. Injection

For me I have Injections into the buttocks, as I know I will never miss a Tablet again.

The reasoning why I have this is that when I was coughing and throwing up, Since trying to give up smoking and not knowing that I have narrow airways of the throat, My tablets were either not getting into my system and then making me relapse into a different state of mind.

When I was in hospital and getting my Injection administered by the then nurse.

I had asked for this weekly as the last Injection, that I had was bi-weekly. And I had lasted 3 years since succumbing to a relapse.

The doctor there was about to state that I will be getting my New Injection every bi-weekly. But since knowing that I had been going down since having it like this every so often it would increase between a day and two, to the then 4 days before I was due my Injection.

The doctor stated that I could have this and I have been stable since then. But I do still hear the birds talk, I just ignore them.

The reasoning for this post is that I asked my Physician about what would happen if I were about to go back onto tablet form.

They stated that I would only get enough for a week at a time and that they would have to see me to see what state of conscious mind I am in. And that if I would go back onto tablets that I Would have to take a dose that is nearly equivalent to the dose that I am on now.

I just wanted to know and I said that Confucius said if it ain’t broke don’t fix it.

As Time Disappears!

If you knew nothing of time, and you knew nothing of how time works. Then you would not know what time to sleep and wake.

If you knew nothing of time and you wanted to book a holiday, you would never be able to go to your destination as you would never know what date it would be and what time you coach leaves.

If you knew something of time, you would be escalating the vacuum of space.

It would then become apparent that the time you spend with your family and friends will become precious as you would never know what came or had gone before.

But why would time disappear, as you know time goes forwards and not backwards. As it starts to unwind from the broken promises of kingship.

When I say Kingship I mean a time that had no time at all, and those that were alive had unlimited time to live. An Eternal for that matter.

But we never needed knowledge only freedom to live.

When you need more Money

In this day and age, we are susceptible to ever increasing debt. And bills are most commonly issued debts that we can no longer get away from.

But what if you were never in debt. Would you purchase a high valued price of say a car to finance.

Yes it keeps the cost down for a single deposit. But you would be paying interest on that purchase for the amount of time the finance is issued for.

And no matter what your financial background is like, nobody likes to be in debt. So for the people who do not care about getting carried away with credit cards or even finance on items. You should look at what would be at stake say if you were a gambler, and always lost on sporting events.

Would you accept their promotions to get your money back only to loose more on each transaction. Then you do not have the means to pay utility bills or pay that mortgage. Then you would either be cut-off or loose your house or flat.

And then Depression kicks in and you have no where to look for help.

There might be a time when you just say F**k it and commit suicide, and that no body will feel any remorse that you did.

But what would you leave behind, a wife, a husband, a mother, a father, a son, a daughter, friends.

It is surprising that when you need more money that the best thing to do is to put something aside for rainy days when you really need it.

Relation Woes

Have you got time to listen to some truths, some may not be what you want to hear. But they are truths.

For one, I am subjected to having injections for my Schizophrenia, and two, if I did not, I may miss my oral treatment for it.

As I am absent minded for the most part of the day.

Yes I do have a mother who tries to remind me of taking them, but when you just do not care anymore. It becomes a chore in what is needed. I also suffer from blood clots, as I have had 2 in the last 8 years, so need to be on blood thinners. Also I have narrowed airways of the throat, in which I have telephone conversations with a doctor at the hospital nearly every 6 months.

But what about you.

Also if you have a good relationship with friend and family, then you should talk to them more often, as it will show that you are not suffering from said diagnosis. And that if asked, you should be truthful about your state of mind.

You may be listening to your inner voices, but it would be beneficial if you ignore them and speak to councillors of your condition, to make them acknowledge what steps to take next.