Category: Mind thoughts

Reality Vs My Concious

After So Long In My Plight To Gain Acceptance About My Anxiety, I Have Always Wondered If The Birds Where Ever Speaking To Me, I Am Starting To Be Lost In My Own Actions, I Know It To Be True In Some Context That The Person That I Was Persuing Was Also Persuing Me, But Never Meeting In The Middle. Being In Haste I Know I Should Be Around Her, But With The Deeds Of Before I Am Not Knowing Where I Stand, Even Though I Dream Of Her Now And Then My Heart Is Nearly Given Up. As Has She,

I Know I Can Not Look At Another Until I Find A Cure, Needing Information From Her Lips And Eyes,

I am a Transparent On Being Of Two Minds, Some Of Which I Have Grown Accustomed To Being Alone, And Other Trying To Reach Out, But I Have Never Really Lived A Life That Was Filled With Love, Only From the Parents I Had,

I Hope I Have Not Hurt Her In Any Way, Emotionally, I Did Not Mean To Make This A Source For Revenge Hatred As I Had Bottled A lot Of My Feelings Up For Soo Long,

I Say With All Envy I Am Cursed, Listening To Birds In My Neighbourhood For All Time, They Are Starting To Die Down But Always Come Back.

Try and Unfathem out me

After years of living as a child, having no real worries about the world or what lies within it, i have found my self to be just the opposite. i am more unsocial than i ever was. i am now 27 nearly going to go onto 28, in a few months time. i have never really been out with someone, yet i have had the oppotunities a few times in my teens. i would say that i have only like one person that is. waiting for the end of the world just to be acknowledged. i have done many silly and disturbing things in the past, that i would like to put behind me and forget them all. but deep down it still tourments me from within.

i would like to say that when you are a child you come upon to be at one with everyone having the same commonality, being young and learning what life holds dear. but for this we are needing constant reminders about maintaining that commonality, but if you were to brake that and strive to look for more intuative information regarding all the elements on life, what the cause and effects are and how things belongs you can fundermentally find what is not belonging and how all the cause and effects are created. the main goal here is to find WHO I AM.

maybe i am one of two ideas, one that wants to stay with the pac, or the other that is trying to find freedom, to love and to not be loved, to be at one with the elements or to be hidden from sight. this is just a few thoughts running through my head constantly.

Here is one to think about.  “if a person stays the same, they are trapped by being the same. if a person is has many faces they are shuned, if a person regards them selves as another, they are a clone” what does this all lead to.   think about it LOGICALLY ask more than 10 questions regarding the one aspect and making sure that the answers can be answered Openly ( Where Do You Want To Go Today?).

i know that this is going to be my first blog and utterly famish (not in plain english) but please give me a chance. when the time comes i will write more,