Category: Mental Health

Promises.

When you are petite and want something that would cost an arm and a leg, and your carers cannot afford it. Would they promise that one day you shall have what you wanted?

Then, one day, unexpectedly, you receive your gift.

Would it still levy with you that they took the time and effort to earn enough so that you could have what you wanted in the first place?

Some people would go to the end of the world to get you what you want, and in return, be satisfied that you love it and them the more.

It is with this that I state that no matter what you do, you will always have the promise to keep; this entails that you would need to be true to yourself and protect what is important to you.

Family matters, and you cannot choose who your carers are, only friends and fiance.

Although Promises can be broken, and it is only this that we remember as an old saying: “NEWS SELLS”.

Virtue vs Blatant Ignorance

Have you ever thought that you are the only one with some form of mental instability and would like to find help, but do not know where to turn to? I find that if you are under the influence of hearing voices and seeing things that are not there. That one should go to a doctor and talk things over. He/She may advise you to go to the hospital to be assessed.
This will only take a short time, but the wait might be long as many hospitals are only used for A&E-style approaches.

When you get to see a Psychiatrist, you should talk about your problem and if they think a lengthy stay at that hospital is vital for you to get well. I would advise doing it VOLUNTARILY as you will not be SECTIONED. And your stay may be short.

It is not until they think that you are unwell that you may be Sectioned if you have been in the hospital for some period of time. And are not showing signs of getting well, for instance, you do not wash, for instance, you are loud and ignorant of others.

I myself have spent time in a hospital for a few weeks to a few months but not 6-12 months of stay, the most I have stayed in a hospital was 4-12 weeks.

When I say VIRTUE I mean that you are looking for help. And you will not stop until you can find professional help.

It is others that are Blatantly Ignorant of you having this form of the episode and do not know what to do to help you. You will have to tell them that you are feeling unwell and want to see a doctor in which you want to seek advice about undertaking some form of prescription drug to help alleviate the voices.

Once you are on the correct medication and have been well for x number of days, weeks, months and years. You may one day become intolerant to the drugs and may relapse into hearing voices again. but you will have had a care plan in place and have spoken about the triggers that you acknowledged about what entails you to hear voices or see things that are not actually there.

Tablets vs. Injection

For me I have Injections into the buttocks, as I know I will never miss a Tablet again.

The reasoning why I have this is that when I was coughing and throwing up, Since trying to give up smoking and not knowing that I have narrow airways of the throat, My tablets were either not getting into my system and then making me relapse into a different state of mind.

When I was in hospital and getting my Injection administered by the then nurse.

I had asked for this weekly as the last Injection, that I had was bi-weekly. And I had lasted 3 years since succumbing to a relapse.

The doctor there was about to state that I will be getting my New Injection every bi-weekly. But since knowing that I had been going down since having it like this every so often it would increase between a day and two, to the then 4 days before I was due my Injection.

The doctor stated that I could have this and I have been stable since then. But I do still hear the birds talk, I just ignore them.

The reasoning for this post is that I asked my Physician about what would happen if I were about to go back onto tablet form.

They stated that I would only get enough for a week at a time and that they would have to see me to see what state of conscious mind I am in. And that if I would go back onto tablets that I Would have to take a dose that is nearly equivalent to the dose that I am on now.

I just wanted to know and I said that Confucius said if it ain’t broke don’t fix it.

Relation Woes

Have you got time to listen to some truths, some may not be what you want to hear. But they are truths.

For one, I am subjected to having injections for my Schizophrenia, and two, if I did not, I may miss my oral treatment for it.

As I am absent minded for the most part of the day.

Yes I do have a mother who tries to remind me of taking them, but when you just do not care anymore. It becomes a chore in what is needed. I also suffer from blood clots, as I have had 2 in the last 8 years, so need to be on blood thinners. Also I have narrowed airways of the throat, in which I have telephone conversations with a doctor at the hospital nearly every 6 months.

But what about you.

Also if you have a good relationship with friend and family, then you should talk to them more often, as it will show that you are not suffering from said diagnosis. And that if asked, you should be truthful about your state of mind.

You may be listening to your inner voices, but it would be beneficial if you ignore them and speak to councillors of your condition, to make them acknowledge what steps to take next.

Inject to Not diverse

When you are little and growing up, you learn about your surroundings and the people who you see nearly daily.

But what you do not know is that them people have some secrets that they do not want the world to know.

It is that either that they are some sort of LGBTQ or they are living the life they wanted. Without regrets.

But once you start to see the changes in them, and they are happy. You feel for them. Meaning that no matter what they do you are glad that they are still alive and well.

But what if they did not show it in early age. Would you see them Take control of their lives at a tender age of OLD.

We as a humanity need to get on with people from all diverse background and live the life we and they choose.

We are only here once and we need to get along with people as a means to help one another when the time comes.

I myself thought that I was just a transvestite, and later resolved my issues with my family. Only that I do not dare to do it now.

Debt Accredited

For those of you who go by your daily lives without purchasing high valued items, I salute you. As why would you want to be paying over the odds for an item that may become obsolete in a few months time.

Well, if you are like me and paranoid about buying and buying without thinking about the consequences later. Then you should read this.

I have got a lot of debt, and find it hard to get away from. I did have about £6,500 worth with a credit card company and another £2,500 with another credit card company, on top off the I had bills to pay.

So my mother got me to finance the payments to pay back the debt.

I no longer have the £2,500 debt and now only owe the one credit card company £2,000.

I thought my troubles were over until I purchased some more on finance.

Granted, I can pay this but if I was not paying I would be in great trouble.

If I were you, I would only buy things that have a high price and save the money to purchase them. It would be simpler that way. And save the hassle of paying instalments for a period of time.

If I could live my life again, would I go into debt. No, and here’s why, Why would you want to fork out x amount either weekly or monthly, for a few years and then need to upgrade, Yes it would pay to have a purchase and then upgrade if it was on a plan that allowed this, I.E phone contracts.

But what if that product did not allow this, then you would have to thing is it worth it and how to make money from that high valued price tag.

If it was a camera, you could sell your photos.

If it was a computer, could you decode video as a freelancer.

These are the options you have to think about when extravagantly purchasing products.

So if you see something you fancy and are able to afford it straight out, I would wait until prices comes down and continue to save. So that if you did purchase it, you would still have money to spare.

What would you do?

If you know somebody who was having difficulty explaining themselves to you about how they felt. What would you do?.

Would it be a cry for help or would it be something disturbing that the person you knew would not talk, and will not seek help.

And depending on how long they have been feeling this, could it just be some form of depression and nothing more.

If it became bad and you had no hope of them speaking about the way they were feeling, it is time that you stood up and got them some professional help.

I had been feeling this once, and it is not nice, as we are social creatures, and we need an audience to talk to others. But once you start to become unwell and either start to hear voices. They alone are your audiences.

So professional help is key in getting them the support from doctors to Psychologists. About how to treat you either at home or in a constitution.

But once you have had the support and on the correct medication, your life should return back to normal and you will be talking to family members, friends, colleagues once again.

So the moral of the story is to talk about how you feel no matter what it entails and to make sure that if you do find yourself doing the same thing again. Then your loved ones may need to step in again and get you some needed rest.

From Within

Have you ever noticed that when you are quiet that you can sometimes hear your own voice. This is an internal monologue, that nearly everybody has.

It can either be your thoughts concentrating on a task or something other than Voices.

You would know when you are hearing voices because they never shut up and is when your mind is going twenty to the dozen with no slow down. It will start to slow down, once you have gotten some medication or peer to peer conversations.

But what if they can not slow down and you have no help from anybody, even if you are unable to talk to a professional.

Well the short answer is, Call your doctor or walk into a medical centre for help. They will try and diagnose what you have and try to help.

Once you have a diagnosis and are well with the medication or time spent in a hospital. You will feel better in your self and will be able to concentrate on menial tasks like you used to do.

But what if the drugs are not working. Or if you are on tablets and you think you do not need them.

Then there would be a reprise of the voices and your brain will start to go into overdrive once again.

It is better to take your medication when you on something daily weekly monthly. If having injections I would advise doing this when you are needing to go to your local Psychiatric centre and get it.

Mine used to be fortnightly but since I became accustomed to the injection and was going down within a day before my injection was due. I had to have the top up when my Psychiatrist prescribed it and did the injection. But then if having the same injection for some time it could be that you may go down a few days before. This happened to me and I relapsed.

I went back into Psychiatric care and advised that I would stay there until I got my medication correct.

Once they put me onto something and I was showing signs of health coming back. Whilst on Tablets.

When they were going to give me the same medication but in liquid form I asked if I could have it weekly.

I am now now the mend but still hear voices from time to time, but is nowhere near as much as I had when in Psychiatric care.

I will never be 100% fit. And I may never be able to work again. But what I am saying is get a diagnosis and get help.

Thank you for listening.

Also you may be destined to have Voices if any member of your immediate family has had voices before.

Rebounding Notions

From time to time we feel the best that we can be, and with this we strive for perfection in whatever it is that we are doing.

But deep down we know something is up, we may not have a definitive answer, but we know something is up, it may be ourselves or family members that just do not want to talk.

So we must try to get them to talk and get answers for what it is that they or us are feeling. It is bad to keep things bottled up for years or days for instance. If you went to the shop for somebody and ordered or purchased something that they wanted, and when bringing it back, you notice that the lack of enthusiasm is drained from them.

This is no fault of your own, but an emasculation of days or weeks, of feeling down.

So how would you know if they felt threatened by a conversation from the heart about the way that they feel.

We are only merely Mortals, and we need solitude to learn that if we lived alone, that no matter what you said, nobody would answer.

Solitude only comes from a time that we know is keen for those who are well and only need say 5 minutes to self to gain momentum for what could happen.

We rebound on notions and feelings the one day the world will turn up side down, and no matter what help there is, us or them, may become unwell.

So if you listen and talk to each other. Somethings that had a down may be able to be picked up, and help those that need help.

The Flow Of Things

When we are growing up we do not forsee a life that is plagued by mental health. It is only when we learn that other family members have had the same thing happen to them. And it is with this that we learn about our selves.

If a family member had some form of mental health, and you are born after the fact, then you could pose as one that has this also.

Why is society deemed as one that needs assurance that if you become unwell that you pose as no risk to them. But could you pose a risk on your self.

This could be the fact that if you have never had any voices within, and you could not cope with them without specialists help. As you may only need these if it becomes unbearable. That you could try and commit suicide.

This is no way to live your life and if you do find that you are hearing voices that you should go to a specialist either by visiting your GP in person and and asking for further help.

We do not know when we will become ill, so it is a precaution when we do.

You may spend some time in an institution but this is good as you will be monitored daily and hourly.

I have had 3-5 institutions from a period of 11 years.

But each time I went in voluntarily as I knew that I would only be spending the minimum time possible there.

It is when you are sectioned and this is done via a psychiatric assessment that a doctor will do. They will either have you detained for 6 months to a year. Some people need longer as they have no luck in trying to get better. But know this. You will not have any visitors and you will not be able to go outside.

But once you see changes in the way you are living, meaning not hearing voices and are on the medication that is prescribed, either via tablets or injections, that you should not miss this as you may fall back into the same state that you were in before you were medicated.

I will leave this now.

Thanks for listening.

Cortex