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Dreaming

I have a number of dreams that I can remember from growing up but some of them are really freaky.

1. I am at my nana and grandad’s house sitting on a table getting my Shoe-Laces tied by my grandad when i was about 3-4 years old. then another me halfway up the stairs looking down at me from a younger age, Aged about 8-9 also another me looking down at both my younger years at age 12-14 years of age.

can you sum this one up?

2. Falling

I have had this dream only on the odd occasion when I am at a block of flats or shopping centre where the height is quite high, I jump and feel the breeze hitting my face and my heart pounding like a drum. but then I hit the floor and feel some of the impact, I am not dead.

I later try to do this again with the knowledge that I have learned from the fall and put into practice falling again but this time to stop the impending floor by slowing my fall to bring me safely on my feet,  also levitating before touching the ground.

3. before my family moved from one house to another. I have a strange inkling that when I was about 4-5 my dad was driving me and mam to my nana’s, I see a house on a street that we have passed thousands of times that I think that we might live there one day. I still remember this vividly. then when I was about 14 I had a dream as we moved with boxes in the room ready to be unpacked, waiting for mother to come home from work and me coming down the stairs and engaging in conversation. that I realised that I had dreamt this dream about 9 months prior to this encounter. that I ask my self is this deja vu or just being partly psychic.

Try and Unfathem out me

After years of living as a child, having no real worries about the world or what lies within it, i have found my self to be just the opposite. i am more unsocial than i ever was. i am now 27 nearly going to go onto 28, in a few months time. i have never really been out with someone, yet i have had the oppotunities a few times in my teens. i would say that i have only like one person that is. waiting for the end of the world just to be acknowledged. i have done many silly and disturbing things in the past, that i would like to put behind me and forget them all. but deep down it still tourments me from within.

i would like to say that when you are a child you come upon to be at one with everyone having the same commonality, being young and learning what life holds dear. but for this we are needing constant reminders about maintaining that commonality, but if you were to brake that and strive to look for more intuative information regarding all the elements on life, what the cause and effects are and how things belongs you can fundermentally find what is not belonging and how all the cause and effects are created. the main goal here is to find WHO I AM.

maybe i am one of two ideas, one that wants to stay with the pac, or the other that is trying to find freedom, to love and to not be loved, to be at one with the elements or to be hidden from sight. this is just a few thoughts running through my head constantly.

Here is one to think about.  “if a person stays the same, they are trapped by being the same. if a person is has many faces they are shuned, if a person regards them selves as another, they are a clone” what does this all lead to.   think about it LOGICALLY ask more than 10 questions regarding the one aspect and making sure that the answers can be answered Openly ( Where Do You Want To Go Today?).

i know that this is going to be my first blog and utterly famish (not in plain english) but please give me a chance. when the time comes i will write more,