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Instance vs. Virtue

If you are like me and have a mental condition, that will be for life. Then you will know that I suffer from Schizophrenia.

And to see a Virtue in somebody, takes time to navigate the mind and instigate a welcome.

This is about being an Introvert, and knowing that if somebody is like this means that it takes time to acknowledge a welcome and to work as a group.

It means that the instance that one is about to be an Extrovert, they have welcomed that person or group into their lives.

It faulter’s on the notion that they are ok to be around and that they know that no harm will come to them.

Yet we cannot be both Introverts or Extroverts. As this is not what we are able to do.

Yes there can be times that we are extravert when our initial understanding of ourselves are introverts. It just does not compute if we are either.

That is why when we are about to meet somebody new that it takes time for us to have a conversation and understand what is being said. We as a person with this condition, think not once but many times, as what to say. As we do not wont to offend or get the meaning incorrectly, to be able to talk about our feelings, takes time, and we are only able to talk about it to persons we have known for years.

That is why for each Instance of meeting and greeting, We need to see a virtue in that person before we can become friends.

Tablets vs. Injection

For me I have Injections into the buttocks, as I know I will never miss a Tablet again.

The reasoning why I have this is that when I was coughing and throwing up, Since trying to give up smoking and not knowing that I have narrow airways of the throat, My tablets were either not getting into my system and then making me relapse into a different state of mind.

When I was in hospital and getting my Injection administered by the then nurse.

I had asked for this weekly as the last Injection, that I had was bi-weekly. And I had lasted 3 years since succumbing to a relapse.

The doctor there was about to state that I will be getting my New Injection every bi-weekly. But since knowing that I had been going down since having it like this every so often it would increase between a day and two, to the then 4 days before I was due my Injection.

The doctor stated that I could have this and I have been stable since then. But I do still hear the birds talk, I just ignore them.

The reasoning for this post is that I asked my Physician about what would happen if I were about to go back onto tablet form.

They stated that I would only get enough for a week at a time and that they would have to see me to see what state of conscious mind I am in. And that if I would go back onto tablets that I Would have to take a dose that is nearly equivalent to the dose that I am on now.

I just wanted to know and I said that Confucius said if it ain’t broke don’t fix it.

As Time Disappears!

If you knew nothing of time, and you knew nothing of how time works. Then you would not know what time to sleep and wake.

If you knew nothing of time and you wanted to book a holiday, you would never be able to go to your destination as you would never know what date it would be and what time you coach leaves.

If you knew something of time, you would be escalating the vacuum of space.

It would then become apparent that the time you spend with your family and friends will become precious as you would never know what came or had gone before.

But why would time disappear, as you know time goes forwards and not backwards. As it starts to unwind from the broken promises of kingship.

When I say Kingship I mean a time that had no time at all, and those that were alive had unlimited time to live. An Eternal for that matter.

But we never needed knowledge only freedom to live.

When you need more Money

In this day and age, we are susceptible to ever increasing debt. And bills are most commonly issued debts that we can no longer get away from.

But what if you were never in debt. Would you purchase a high valued price of say a car to finance.

Yes it keeps the cost down for a single deposit. But you would be paying interest on that purchase for the amount of time the finance is issued for.

And no matter what your financial background is like, nobody likes to be in debt. So for the people who do not care about getting carried away with credit cards or even finance on items. You should look at what would be at stake say if you were a gambler, and always lost on sporting events.

Would you accept their promotions to get your money back only to loose more on each transaction. Then you do not have the means to pay utility bills or pay that mortgage. Then you would either be cut-off or loose your house or flat.

And then Depression kicks in and you have no where to look for help.

There might be a time when you just say F**k it and commit suicide, and that no body will feel any remorse that you did.

But what would you leave behind, a wife, a husband, a mother, a father, a son, a daughter, friends.

It is surprising that when you need more money that the best thing to do is to put something aside for rainy days when you really need it.

Relation Woes

Have you got time to listen to some truths, some may not be what you want to hear. But they are truths.

For one, I am subjected to having injections for my Schizophrenia, and two, if I did not, I may miss my oral treatment for it.

As I am absent minded for the most part of the day.

Yes I do have a mother who tries to remind me of taking them, but when you just do not care anymore. It becomes a chore in what is needed. I also suffer from blood clots, as I have had 2 in the last 8 years, so need to be on blood thinners. Also I have narrowed airways of the throat, in which I have telephone conversations with a doctor at the hospital nearly every 6 months.

But what about you.

Also if you have a good relationship with friend and family, then you should talk to them more often, as it will show that you are not suffering from said diagnosis. And that if asked, you should be truthful about your state of mind.

You may be listening to your inner voices, but it would be beneficial if you ignore them and speak to councillors of your condition, to make them acknowledge what steps to take next.

Is Sleep Propnatic

For those of you who uses sleep to gain energy for the start of the day. Do you sometimes overdo it when needing to get something done in the day.

Or are you one who finds it difficult to get to sleep, when going to bed and just laying there,

I find that when I get up in the evening, that I find it difficult to get to sleep during the night. And when I do fall asleep, I am either focusing my thoughts on the days revenue, or listening to the radio.

As some of you who do not get out that much may be lacking in VITAMIN D. If you are, then please see a doctor, who will tell you to take x amount of vitamin d tablets, for x amount of time.

I know as About 2 years ago I had to do just that. But since I am sometimes housebound meaning I am not getting out as much during the day and getting the suns rays to my face and hands. That I might need to do this again.

Hinderance Accolade

Are we, who we are supposed to be in a world were governed by imbeciles.

Or are we just playing the waiting game in a world of Hinderance Accolade.

When we say Hinderance Accolade, we mean that for each action there is a reaction to what progressed. It helps us to think that when we are who we say we are, that no matter the consequence, we either help or tarnish a developmental stage of approval.

We therefor work alone, and in groups where we learn and conquer what it is that needs to be done in stages.

As we grow and whimper at what had been done in the past or present, we need to nurture what is wrong and make right.

Inject to Not diverse

When you are little and growing up, you learn about your surroundings and the people who you see nearly daily.

But what you do not know is that them people have some secrets that they do not want the world to know.

It is that either that they are some sort of LGBTQ or they are living the life they wanted. Without regrets.

But once you start to see the changes in them, and they are happy. You feel for them. Meaning that no matter what they do you are glad that they are still alive and well.

But what if they did not show it in early age. Would you see them Take control of their lives at a tender age of OLD.

We as a humanity need to get on with people from all diverse background and live the life we and they choose.

We are only here once and we need to get along with people as a means to help one another when the time comes.

I myself thought that I was just a transvestite, and later resolved my issues with my family. Only that I do not dare to do it now.

Waiting For

Have you notice that when you are doing something that when somebody wants you to do something they have to wait for you to do it.

It comes too thought that when we are waiting for something to come along and help the main concept of thought provoking actions.

That we just need to wait for something to come along.

We as Humanity need to wait, before we do anything, and before our actions make a bad move. It would mean that when we as humanity are going to do something that we need to reflect on what the cause and actions will be for the future.

Bit like when we are thinking of Waiting For.

Debt Accredited

For those of you who go by your daily lives without purchasing high valued items, I salute you. As why would you want to be paying over the odds for an item that may become obsolete in a few months time.

Well, if you are like me and paranoid about buying and buying without thinking about the consequences later. Then you should read this.

I have got a lot of debt, and find it hard to get away from. I did have about £6,500 worth with a credit card company and another £2,500 with another credit card company, on top off the I had bills to pay.

So my mother got me to finance the payments to pay back the debt.

I no longer have the £2,500 debt and now only owe the one credit card company £2,000.

I thought my troubles were over until I purchased some more on finance.

Granted, I can pay this but if I was not paying I would be in great trouble.

If I were you, I would only buy things that have a high price and save the money to purchase them. It would be simpler that way. And save the hassle of paying instalments for a period of time.

If I could live my life again, would I go into debt. No, and here’s why, Why would you want to fork out x amount either weekly or monthly, for a few years and then need to upgrade, Yes it would pay to have a purchase and then upgrade if it was on a plan that allowed this, I.E phone contracts.

But what if that product did not allow this, then you would have to thing is it worth it and how to make money from that high valued price tag.

If it was a camera, you could sell your photos.

If it was a computer, could you decode video as a freelancer.

These are the options you have to think about when extravagantly purchasing products.

So if you see something you fancy and are able to afford it straight out, I would wait until prices comes down and continue to save. So that if you did purchase it, you would still have money to spare.