Getting Well – Unfathem Cortex

Cognitive Capacity

Growing up, we learn things such as our name and the language our caregivers speak. But it is not the only thing that we learn.

We grow up too fast, unlearn things that are the nature of the human race, delude the facts and figure out what we must do to keep justice and peace with everyone. But what if we learned at a snail’s pace?

What then?

Ready or not, here we come and go from the underground of virtue to the distillate of woe. Rising up to see the sun bloom in the morning’s dust and then another day’s rise. Gone are the days of woe, but they may return on an endless crusade of intolerance to learn.

Just another endless night and day from the creation of life and planets, we seek our fortune in the anti-crusade of enlightenment.

But mass-produced to a known figure of 8*.

What I do to make myself well….

For some time now, I have made myself well, by not trying to decipher bird’s tweets, as I can do this on the odd occasion. But it is normally just the same old stuff that is deciphered. Before becoming unwell I used to have a job that I sometimes despised on some occasions about it raining or snowing. My main role was mainly outdoor work. But this was a routine that I had become so enthused about when working.

Then for some apparent reason, I started to hear voices, that were not my own. This was because I had a crush on someone from years ago, that rekindled my love for life, I then started to read in-depth into things, that were not real, and this then took it to another level when trying to talk, or convey something that would never be.

I then started to think illogically and seeing a post about a song from a friend, put me into guilty mode and thought that my life was in danger.

I then had to go to work with knowing this and before I did, I spoke gibberish online, so a colleague noticed and told one of the bosses. They then asked me some questions and went with me to my outdoor work, when I was being paranoid they then proceeded to notify my mother where they were going to be taking me.

This was the hospital. I had to wait until being seen too, and by then my mother had come and consoled me that I would be well once I get seen too. The only bad thing that came about this is that my stay would be in an area unbeknown to me. And it was an hour’s drive to my stay.

After my stay there, I was brought back to an area I knew best, as I escaped the defences of the electronic doors, but somebody helped me get back, as I had no money or knew where I was.

It was a further 2 weeks stay in hospital.

This was over ten years ago and I sometimes still live the day that I was taken in.

Since then I have been in three more times due to ill health, yet some information is random in which I had stayed. I was having a breakdown once every two years until I was placed on some medication that I had to have in an injected form, but bi-weekly. This then resulted in me being hospitalised after 3 years on those injections, so I had broken my duck every two years by one year over.

There was a reason why I had been hospitalised and to me is that I was due my injection a day then 2 and 3 days before it was due. I was also agitated when trying to watch a film, as I would stand and tap my shoes from foot to foot.

Now that I have asked when getting a new injection to have it weekly, my care provider can then see me regularly, and they can then be notified of any changes in my moods.

I have also had to have the dosage reduced twice since being on it. This was due to Vacant Staring and Exessive Saliva when sleeping.

It now has been over several years since being hospitalised.

See Battle, Never Wins.

If you’re feeling combative and are looking for a fight, remember that you will never win. Instead, you’ll only lose your soul to demons that have long been on the prowl. These demons freely roam the earth and other celestial bodies with life, seeking to capture your essence and offer you three wishes.

They cannot be defeated but lived with, as the old saying goes, listen carefully to your thoughts, but never act on what is said.

The only way to defeat a demon is to consistently engage with others and express your inner feelings. It may be challenging to propose such actions initially, but by doing so, you can thwart the influence of the demon. The demon will always linger, but its impact will be limited.

Demon, Demon on the prowl looking for others to give a ghost, Demon, Demon, how can this be, searching for answers you will never seek my essence, Demon, Demon, play to thee, a hatchling came with honey and glee, get out of my youngsters mind, play your wars with intrepid thoughts, never to seek out any more or less, Demon Demon, You tried to take my life alone, now you seek more info from times before. Demon, Demon, from under the tree, I am glad I can say to thee, Angel from up above, touched my demon and granted null, now I hear and see nothing more than dust itself, Living once more my life is my own,

Heavens open for a beautiful morning in the light of day, I fought my demon on the eve of night.

Virtue vs Blatant Ignorance

Have you ever thought that you are the only one with some form of mental instability and would like to find help, but do not know where to turn to? I find that if you are under the influence of hearing voices and seeing things that are not there. That one should go to a doctor and talk things over. He/She may advise you to go to the hospital to be assessed.
This will only take a short time, but the wait might be long as many hospitals are only used for A&E-style approaches.

When you get to see a Psychiatrist, you should talk about your problem and if they think a lengthy stay at that hospital is vital for you to get well. I would advise doing it VOLUNTARILY as you will not be SECTIONED. And your stay may be short.

It is not until they think that you are unwell that you may be Sectioned if you have been in the hospital for some period of time. And are not showing signs of getting well, for instance, you do not wash, for instance, you are loud and ignorant of others.

I myself have spent time in a hospital for a few weeks to a few months but not 6-12 months of stay, the most I have stayed in a hospital was 4-12 weeks.

When I say VIRTUE I mean that you are looking for help. And you will not stop until you can find professional help.

It is others that are Blatantly Ignorant of you having this form of the episode and do not know what to do to help you. You will have to tell them that you are feeling unwell and want to see a doctor in which you want to seek advice about undertaking some form of prescription drug to help alleviate the voices.

Once you are on the correct medication and have been well for x number of days, weeks, months and years. You may one day become intolerant to the drugs and may relapse into hearing voices again. but you will have had a care plan in place and have spoken about the triggers that you acknowledged about what entails you to hear voices or see things that are not actually there.

Tablets vs. Injection

For me I have Injections into the buttocks, as I know I will never miss a Tablet again.

The reasoning why I have this is that when I was coughing and throwing up, Since trying to give up smoking and not knowing that I have narrow airways of the throat, My tablets were either not getting into my system and then making me relapse into a different state of mind.

When I was in hospital and getting my Injection administered by the then nurse.

I had asked for this weekly as the last Injection, that I had was bi-weekly. And I had lasted 3 years since succumbing to a relapse.

The doctor there was about to state that I will be getting my New Injection every bi-weekly. But since knowing that I had been going down since having it like this every so often it would increase between a day and two, to the then 4 days before I was due my Injection.

The doctor stated that I could have this and I have been stable since then. But I do still hear the birds talk, I just ignore them.

The reasoning for this post is that I asked my Physician about what would happen if I were about to go back onto tablet form.

They stated that I would only get enough for a week at a time and that they would have to see me to see what state of conscious mind I am in. And that if I would go back onto tablets that I Would have to take a dose that is nearly equivalent to the dose that I am on now.

I just wanted to know and I said that Confucius said if it ain’t broke don’t fix it.

From Within

Have you ever noticed that when you are quiet that you can sometimes hear your own voice. This is an internal monologue, that nearly everybody has.

It can either be your thoughts concentrating on a task or something other than Voices.

You would know when you are hearing voices because they never shut up and is when your mind is going twenty to the dozen with no slow down. It will start to slow down, once you have gotten some medication or peer to peer conversations.

But what if they can not slow down and you have no help from anybody, even if you are unable to talk to a professional.

Well the short answer is, Call your doctor or walk into a medical centre for help. They will try and diagnose what you have and try to help.

Once you have a diagnosis and are well with the medication or time spent in a hospital. You will feel better in your self and will be able to concentrate on menial tasks like you used to do.

But what if the drugs are not working. Or if you are on tablets and you think you do not need them.

Then there would be a reprise of the voices and your brain will start to go into overdrive once again.

It is better to take your medication when you on something daily weekly monthly. If having injections I would advise doing this when you are needing to go to your local Psychiatric centre and get it.

Mine used to be fortnightly but since I became accustomed to the injection and was going down within a day before my injection was due. I had to have the top up when my Psychiatrist prescribed it and did the injection. But then if having the same injection for some time it could be that you may go down a few days before. This happened to me and I relapsed.

I went back into Psychiatric care and advised that I would stay there until I got my medication correct.

Once they put me onto something and I was showing signs of health coming back. Whilst on Tablets.

When they were going to give me the same medication but in liquid form I asked if I could have it weekly.

I am now now the mend but still hear voices from time to time, but is nowhere near as much as I had when in Psychiatric care.

I will never be 100% fit. And I may never be able to work again. But what I am saying is get a diagnosis and get help.

Thank you for listening.

Also you may be destined to have Voices if any member of your immediate family has had voices before.

Rebounding Notions

From time to time we feel the best that we can be, and with this we strive for perfection in whatever it is that we are doing.

But deep down we know something is up, we may not have a definitive answer, but we know something is up, it may be ourselves or family members that just do not want to talk.

So we must try to get them to talk and get answers for what it is that they or us are feeling. It is bad to keep things bottled up for years or days for instance. If you went to the shop for somebody and ordered or purchased something that they wanted, and when bringing it back, you notice that the lack of enthusiasm is drained from them.

This is no fault of your own, but an emasculation of days or weeks, of feeling down.

So how would you know if they felt threatened by a conversation from the heart about the way that they feel.

We are only merely Mortals, and we need solitude to learn that if we lived alone, that no matter what you said, nobody would answer.

Solitude only comes from a time that we know is keen for those who are well and only need say 5 minutes to self to gain momentum for what could happen.

We rebound on notions and feelings the one day the world will turn up side down, and no matter what help there is, us or them, may become unwell.

So if you listen and talk to each other. Somethings that had a down may be able to be picked up, and help those that need help.

Current State

Hi Everybody Who May Have Read Some Of My Posts. I Would Like To Say That I Have Finally Concluded That I Am Back To My Usual Self, And Got Rid Of Any Anxieties That I Have Had Regarding Someone.

I Have Been Taking Medication To Get Me Back On Track To A More Lively State And None Volatile Nature, Even So I Had No Grounds On Hurting Anybody When I Was Ill. Its Now Been Some Time Since I Wrote About It And Need No More Grounds On Concluding Its Outcome.

I Sincerely Hope To Continue To Write About My Hobbies, Interests, Aspects Of My Live That I Hope You Will Enjoy.

Thank You For Listening.