Author: UnFathem Cortex

Just a viewer of time and what makes a day. I see and analyze what went before and after. Just looking through the schism of time.

Heavenly Delights

Heavenly delights come to those that wait, Heavenly delight is knowledge sent from above. Heavenly Delights we may never know. Heavenly Delights are just what we sow.

 

Many people feel that waiting for the next life or going to the other side, feel that this life is not what it all seems, we try to live this life the best that we could and to the best that we can.

We All Tire Of Our Lives Sometimes

I know I have not written anything thing for a while now since my computer crashed on me and had to reset everything. and installing windows 7 for the future.

Now Here is what I want to say, someday I will die and I am glad of it as I am bored with this one as I have lost my job which I liked because of careless mistakes that I have been having as a bad habit.

Do Our Loved Animals Still Circle Us, To Know That We Are Protected. Loved. Missed.

Had A Dream Of My Former Four Legged Friends Last Night. This entailed That I Would Not Let Them Out of my sight. as one of them went off or was dog-napped when I was a youngster. this one was one of my best friends and I have had four dogs in my life up to today. the first was an Alsation, who I had known since I was born, she followed me nearly everywhere I went. and was my main protector apart from my parents.

my second dog was king Charles who inadvertently was miss treated and hell he could snore loudly. he passed away nearly 17 years ago. and could spell out a biscuit or chocolate buttons from Cadbury. he lived a good life and could pick out the carrots that were given to him from our leftover Sunday dinners.

my third dog was called Cyndi. and only lived a short while.

now since my dream, I was always near my beloved dogs and still was given kisses by them when asked and would always look to see that they are near. I think that this is because I may not want to be alone when members of my family pass. I only have my mother and brother who is married with three children. as all my grandparents and father have gone to the spirit in the sky. Even though people portray an animal as a none entity they do not miss them when they pass. I for one still like to remember them, no matter how long ago it was since I saw them last.

Just Thought

Hi Everyone Just an update on what I have been up to. recently I hurt my ankle playing football, it’s now been over a month since I was at work, and my works place keeps calling now and then to see how I am doing and when I will be going back. The immediate care that I have received has been great, yet I will soon be going to a physio to sort out the structural plan for getting me back to work and to see how bad my ankle is so that I may carry on delivering letters. This is because I am a Lost person who likes to put letters through your letter box.

Current State

Hi Everybody Who May Have Read Some Of My Posts. I Would Like To Say That I Have Finally Concluded That I Am Back To My Usual Self, And Got Rid Of Any Anxieties That I Have Had Regarding Someone.

I Have Been Taking Medication To Get Me Back On Track To A More Lively State And None Volatile Nature, Even So I Had No Grounds On Hurting Anybody When I Was Ill. Its Now Been Some Time Since I Wrote About It And Need No More Grounds On Concluding Its Outcome.

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I Sincerely Hope To Continue To Write About My Hobbies, Interests, Aspects Of My Live That I Hope You Will Enjoy.

Thank You For Listening.

To All Who Are Concerned

I would like to take this opportunity to express my feelings on the matters of yesterday that was quite a while back, I do know that I still have some haters for the things that I tried to do, I was not trying to harm anyone or anything but I would like to share this information with you. I know where my place is now and make sure that you understand this, from previous posts on my blog I have to say that through everything that has happened I know you will be ok and fine finally, I need no acquaintance to say sorry as I would know that you have got the message I Am Deeply Sorry. I Have been taking medications to get me corrected and to make sure that my mental capabilities are correct and non-volatile. my only regret is that I did not speak out sooner and made the adjustments to know that it was wrong for me to do. my mind was playing tricks and I created a war that should never have been.

In the appreciating time that I had taken in a midst of a venue, I took time to re-analyze the purpose of this measure and found it to be false. I hope you will forget this and enjoy your life. I am not trying to recreate any of the acts but to only close a book that would never have been opened.  I will find my life once more on the brink of eventuality that should show me the way to not miss diagnosing things. and to make a reasonable life that I may live.

Closure

After trying to get to talk to this one person for some time, I chanced it find out if I was mad or not, but in the sense of talking to the person, I was arrested afterwards but I finally found some form of factor that I was not liked to be going to the house or anywhere near the person, I got cautioned because I knew that I did wrong,

she did say that I was to get away,

I think that I can still hear her but I am trying not to listen and might be going to a spiritualist to seek some help.

Reality Vs My Concious

After So Long In My Plight To Gain Acceptance About My Anxiety, I Have Always Wondered If The Birds Where Ever Speaking To Me, I Am Starting To Be Lost In My Own Actions, I Know It To Be True In Some Context That The Person That I Was Persuing Was Also Persuing Me, But Never Meeting In The Middle. Being In Haste I Know I Should Be Around Her, But With The Deeds Of Before I Am Not Knowing Where I Stand, Even Though I Dream Of Her Now And Then My Heart Is Nearly Given Up. As Has She,

I Know I Can Not Look At Another Until I Find A Cure, Needing Information From Her Lips And Eyes,

I am a Transparent On Being Of Two Minds, Some Of Which I Have Grown Accustomed To Being Alone, And Other Trying To Reach Out, But I Have Never Really Lived A Life That Was Filled With Love, Only From the Parents I Had,

I Hope I Have Not Hurt Her In Any Way, Emotionally, I Did Not Mean To Make This A Source For Revenge Hatred As I Had Bottled A lot Of My Feelings Up For Soo Long,

I Say With All Envy I Am Cursed, Listening To Birds In My Neighbourhood For All Time, They Are Starting To Die Down But Always Come Back.