What I do to make myself well….

For some time now, I have made myself well, by not trying to decipher bird’s tweets, as I can do this on the odd occasion. But it is normally just the same old stuff that is deciphered. Before becoming unwell I used to have a job that I sometimes despised on some occasions about it raining or snowing. My main role was mainly outdoor work. But this was a routine that I had become so enthused about when working.

Then for some apparent reason, I started to hear voices, that were not my own. This was because I had a crush on someone from years ago, that rekindled my love for life, I then started to read in-depth into things, that were not real, and this then took it to another level when trying to talk, or convey something that would never be.

I then started to think illogically and seeing a post about a song from a friend, put me into guilty mode and thought that my life was in danger.

I then had to go to work with knowing this and before I did, I spoke gibberish online, so a colleague noticed and told one of the bosses. They then asked me some questions and went with me to my outdoor work, when I was being paranoid they then proceeded to notify my mother where they were going to be taking me.

This was the hospital. I had to wait until being seen too, and by then my mother had come and consoled me that I would be well once I get seen too. The only bad thing that came about this is that my stay would be in an area unbeknown to me. And it was an hour’s drive to my stay.

After my stay there, I was brought back to an area I knew best, as I escaped the defences of the electronic doors, but somebody helped me get back, as I had no money or knew where I was.

It was a further 2 weeks stay in hospital.

This was over ten years ago and I sometimes still live the day that I was taken in.

Since then I have been in three more times due to ill health, yet some information is random in which I had stayed. I was having a breakdown once every two years until I was placed on some medication that I had to have in an injected form, but bi-weekly. This then resulted in me being hospitalised after 3 years on those injections, so I had broken my duck every two years by one year over.

There was a reason why I had been hospitalised and to me is that I was due my injection a day then 2 and 3 days before it was due. I was also agitated when trying to watch a film, as I would stand and tap my shoes from foot to foot.

Now that I have asked when getting a new injection to have it weekly, my care provider can then see me regularly, and they can then be notified of any changes in my moods.

I have also had to have the dosage reduced twice since being on it. This was due to Vacant Staring and Exessive Saliva when sleeping.

It now has been over several years since being hospitalised.

See Battle, Never Wins.

If you’re feeling combative and are looking for a fight, remember that you will never win. Instead, you’ll only lose your soul to demons that have long been on the prowl. These demons freely roam the earth and other celestial bodies with life, seeking to capture your essence and offer you three wishes.

They cannot be defeated but lived with, as the old saying goes, listen carefully to your thoughts, but never act on what is said.

The only way to defeat a demon is to consistently engage with others and express your inner feelings. It may be challenging to propose such actions initially, but by doing so, you can thwart the influence of the demon. The demon will always linger, but its impact will be limited.

Demon, Demon on the prowl looking for others to give a ghost, Demon, Demon, how can this be, searching for answers you will never seek my essence, Demon, Demon, play to thee, a hatchling came with honey and glee, get out of my youngsters mind, play your wars with intrepid thoughts, never to seek out any more or less, Demon Demon, You tried to take my life alone, now you seek more info from times before. Demon, Demon, from under the tree, I am glad I can say to thee, Angel from up above, touched my demon and granted null, now I hear and see nothing more than dust itself, Living once more my life is my own,

Heavens open for a beautiful morning in the light of day, I fought my demon on the eve of night.

Subliminal vs Ordinary

How is it that when you are ordinary and have never had a lapse of thinking, you think you are unstoppable once you do?

But sometimes, this is just a confusion of your inner beliefs about the world around you. You will then start to think about ways the world will be better off without the evil that is money.

Because everyone knows about money and what it can do for you or what you can do for it, there will come a time when there is no money, and everything will become free, to a certain extent.

But being sublime means that once you have reached this state in your thinking, you would never like to go out of it. But it is a bad thing that can happen, as you may think you could walk on water. And if you cannot swim, this would be dangerous.

If you think you can be sublime, your chakra needs to be closed.

Looking Back

If you had to live this life once again and you could only change one aspect of it, what would it be and why?

I wander around in my mind most of the time and wonder if I truly should do the things that I had done. Even if it was for the experience.

For those of you who are looking to see if you can find this mystery being, and work out what was said from the start to now, you may assume that the language on this site has changed drastically. And some of the errors that you would perceive to be wrong, will now be edited and redone.

I will be ever grateful if you would read what had been said and contact us to see if things could be better done.

Instance vs. Virtue

If you are like me and have a mental condition, that will be for life. Then you will know that I suffer from Schizophrenia.

And to see a Virtue in somebody, takes time to navigate the mind and instigate a welcome.

This is about being an Introvert, and knowing that if somebody is like this means that it takes time to acknowledge a welcome and to work as a group.

It means that the instance that one is about to be an Extrovert, they have welcomed that person or group into their lives.

It faulter’s on the notion that they are ok to be around and that they know that no harm will come to them.

Yet we cannot be both Introverts or Extroverts. As this is not what we are able to do.

Yes there can be times that we are extravert when our initial understanding of ourselves are introverts. It just does not compute if we are either.

That is why when we are about to meet somebody new that it takes time for us to have a conversation and understand what is being said. We as a person with this condition, think not once but many times, as what to say. As we do not wont to offend or get the meaning incorrectly, to be able to talk about our feelings, takes time, and we are only able to talk about it to persons we have known for years.

That is why for each Instance of meeting and greeting, We need to see a virtue in that person before we can become friends.

Have a Restart!

What would you do if you found an error in one of your programmes, and it messed with your system.

 

Would you uninstall or wipe everything in the hope that it would work properly again.

 

Sometimes it is the inevitable and it is one thing that drives me nutty when things do not work as expected.

 

Sometimes it is best not to install and use an alternative programme and hope for the best.

 

I have had this happen to me quite a few times but stuck with it for the time being.

Deviant Creatures

Are you somebody who keeps acting that they are hard or someone who keeps breaking the law.

Well you are an Deviant Creature, who just do not care about what you do until it happens to you.

You may be on drugs or needing to get spare cash with robberies that you do.

 

You would not like it if it happened to yourself, but who cares right.

 

Wrong, If you were not an Deviant Creature, then everybody would not have to worry about locking their doors daily and during the day.

Mentoring vs. Mentored

What would you say if you did not know a subject, or you found it hard getting to the answer. Then you must be mentored, as you will gain an abundance in learning a way of finding the answers you seek.

But those of you who have been mentored, would you seek out a way to help others in the same position as you.

Are you a mentor, and wanting to teach those that need help in learning a subject that you find easy.

Many of us find it hard sometimes in giving advise in a way as to help the recipient to another way of thinking. And that you are the one who is teaching them.

I suffer from PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIA and I have difficulty responding to many questions that you seek, but I have life experiences about the why, the who, the what, and again the why.

Why is this, well I will tell you.

For those of you in a trance and need help in getting out of it, and you want it to be today.

I cannot give any information or even tutoring in this way. But I can relay what I have been through and what it is that I have endured during the trance stages.

First you have depression, then you cannot get out of it. Then you go to the doctors with this and ask why you are like this. The doctor either gives you a prescription for drugs, or asks you to go to get analysed by specialists.

This goes on for many affectees and they seek a definitive answer for their condition.

It may take some time for a correct concoction of drugs that will work, and one that will help the condition in which you are in.

Borrowing Against Savings

For those of you in debt, did you spend more than you earned, or even saved during a time that you had no bills to pay.

Borrowing is the means of getting money for nothing and repaying more back, but you will be in debt once you borrow even 1 penny.

Even saving money can have its downfall. For instance, if you saved every penny you got as a child and your legal guardians paid money in to your banking building society. And once you become of legal age, You may not be able to claim maintanace from the governments. So no matter what you save, you will need to get a job or spend it before this.

I would like to see those that are in debt to get out of it, and those who have thousands of pound or dollars, in the bank before they are legal age, To spend before this time is up.

Love

Love conquers everything or so they thought.

 

When you are in love do you kiss and make up for any misdemeaners that happen in life. Like having a long argument and never winning. Only wasting time and having drama.

 

Or do you have a good relationship with spouse and parents and grandparents.

 

Love may be the answer but not all the time.