Category: Mental Health

Publications.

From time to time, you like to read, and this is no object of either the physical or digital.

You either like to turn the pages and like the feel of a book, or you, like me, like to tap to turn to the next page.

But if we did not have any written media to read, would we just try to cope with being illiterate? And what if we did not also discover how to write? We would only rely on people telling stories that would digress during storytelling. In which the plot and twist would never be the same. And for one person to know one by heart would mean another would also recall the same story but in different details.

Cognitive Capacity

Growing up, we learn things such as our name and the language our caregivers speak. But it is not the only thing that we learn.

We grow up too fast, unlearn things that are the nature of the human race, delude the facts and figure out what we must do to keep justice and peace with everyone. But what if we learned at a snail’s pace?

What then?

Ready or not, here we come and go from the underground of virtue to the distillate of woe. Rising up to see the sun bloom in the morning’s dust and then another day’s rise. Gone are the days of woe, but they may return on an endless crusade of intolerance to learn.

Just another endless night and day from the creation of life and planets, we seek our fortune in the anti-crusade of enlightenment.

But mass-produced to a known figure of 8*.

What I do to make myself well….

For some time now, I have made myself well, by not trying to decipher bird’s tweets, as I can do this on the odd occasion. But it is normally just the same old stuff that is deciphered. Before becoming unwell I used to have a job that I sometimes despised on some occasions about it raining or snowing. My main role was mainly outdoor work. But this was a routine that I had become so enthused about when working.

Then for some apparent reason, I started to hear voices, that were not my own. This was because I had a crush on someone from years ago, that rekindled my love for life, I then started to read in-depth into things, that were not real, and this then took it to another level when trying to talk, or convey something that would never be.

I then started to think illogically and seeing a post about a song from a friend, put me into guilty mode and thought that my life was in danger.

I then had to go to work with knowing this and before I did, I spoke gibberish online, so a colleague noticed and told one of the bosses. They then asked me some questions and went with me to my outdoor work, when I was being paranoid they then proceeded to notify my mother where they were going to be taking me.

This was the hospital. I had to wait until being seen too, and by then my mother had come and consoled me that I would be well once I get seen too. The only bad thing that came about this is that my stay would be in an area unbeknown to me. And it was an hour’s drive to my stay.

After my stay there, I was brought back to an area I knew best, as I escaped the defences of the electronic doors, but somebody helped me get back, as I had no money or knew where I was.

It was a further 2 weeks stay in hospital.

This was over ten years ago and I sometimes still live the day that I was taken in.

Since then I have been in three more times due to ill health, yet some information is random in which I had stayed. I was having a breakdown once every two years until I was placed on some medication that I had to have in an injected form, but bi-weekly. This then resulted in me being hospitalised after 3 years on those injections, so I had broken my duck every two years by one year over.

There was a reason why I had been hospitalised and to me is that I was due my injection a day then 2 and 3 days before it was due. I was also agitated when trying to watch a film, as I would stand and tap my shoes from foot to foot.

Now that I have asked when getting a new injection to have it weekly, my care provider can then see me regularly, and they can then be notified of any changes in my moods.

I have also had to have the dosage reduced twice since being on it. This was due to Vacant Staring and Exessive Saliva when sleeping.

It now has been over several years since being hospitalised.

See Battle, Never Wins.

If you’re feeling combative and are looking for a fight, remember that you will never win. Instead, you’ll only lose your soul to demons that have long been on the prowl. These demons freely roam the earth and other celestial bodies with life, seeking to capture your essence and offer you three wishes.

They cannot be defeated but lived with, as the old saying goes, listen carefully to your thoughts, but never act on what is said.

The only way to defeat a demon is to consistently engage with others and express your inner feelings. It may be challenging to propose such actions initially, but by doing so, you can thwart the influence of the demon. The demon will always linger, but its impact will be limited.

Demon, Demon on the prowl looking for others to give a ghost, Demon, Demon, how can this be, searching for answers you will never seek my essence, Demon, Demon, play to thee, a hatchling came with honey and glee, get out of my youngsters mind, play your wars with intrepid thoughts, never to seek out any more or less, Demon Demon, You tried to take my life alone, now you seek more info from times before. Demon, Demon, from under the tree, I am glad I can say to thee, Angel from up above, touched my demon and granted null, now I hear and see nothing more than dust itself, Living once more my life is my own,

Heavens open for a beautiful morning in the light of day, I fought my demon on the eve of night.

Promises.

When you are petite and want something that would cost an arm and a leg, and your carers cannot afford it. Would they promise that one day you shall have what you wanted?

Then, one day, unexpectedly, you receive your gift.

Would it still levy with you that they took the time and effort to earn enough so that you could have what you wanted in the first place?

Some people would go to the end of the world to get you what you want, and in return, be satisfied that you love it and them the more.

It is with this that I state that no matter what you do, you will always have the promise to keep; this entails that you would need to be true to yourself and protect what is important to you.

Family matters, and you cannot choose who your carers are, only friends and fiance.

Although Promises can be broken, and it is only this that we remember as an old saying: “NEWS SELLS”.

Virtue vs Blatant Ignorance

Have you ever thought that you are the only one with some form of mental instability and would like to find help, but do not know where to turn to? I find that if you are under the influence of hearing voices and seeing things that are not there. That one should go to a doctor and talk things over. He/She may advise you to go to the hospital to be assessed.
This will only take a short time, but the wait might be long as many hospitals are only used for A&E-style approaches.

When you get to see a Psychiatrist, you should talk about your problem and if they think a lengthy stay at that hospital is vital for you to get well. I would advise doing it VOLUNTARILY as you will not be SECTIONED. And your stay may be short.

It is not until they think that you are unwell that you may be Sectioned if you have been in the hospital for some period of time. And are not showing signs of getting well, for instance, you do not wash, for instance, you are loud and ignorant of others.

I myself have spent time in a hospital for a few weeks to a few months but not 6-12 months of stay, the most I have stayed in a hospital was 4-12 weeks.

When I say VIRTUE I mean that you are looking for help. And you will not stop until you can find professional help.

It is others that are Blatantly Ignorant of you having this form of the episode and do not know what to do to help you. You will have to tell them that you are feeling unwell and want to see a doctor in which you want to seek advice about undertaking some form of prescription drug to help alleviate the voices.

Once you are on the correct medication and have been well for x number of days, weeks, months and years. You may one day become intolerant to the drugs and may relapse into hearing voices again. but you will have had a care plan in place and have spoken about the triggers that you acknowledged about what entails you to hear voices or see things that are not actually there.

Tablets vs. Injection

For me I have Injections into the buttocks, as I know I will never miss a Tablet again.

The reasoning why I have this is that when I was coughing and throwing up, Since trying to give up smoking and not knowing that I have narrow airways of the throat, My tablets were either not getting into my system and then making me relapse into a different state of mind.

When I was in hospital and getting my Injection administered by the then nurse.

I had asked for this weekly as the last Injection, that I had was bi-weekly. And I had lasted 3 years since succumbing to a relapse.

The doctor there was about to state that I will be getting my New Injection every bi-weekly. But since knowing that I had been going down since having it like this every so often it would increase between a day and two, to the then 4 days before I was due my Injection.

The doctor stated that I could have this and I have been stable since then. But I do still hear the birds talk, I just ignore them.

The reasoning for this post is that I asked my Physician about what would happen if I were about to go back onto tablet form.

They stated that I would only get enough for a week at a time and that they would have to see me to see what state of conscious mind I am in. And that if I would go back onto tablets that I Would have to take a dose that is nearly equivalent to the dose that I am on now.

I just wanted to know and I said that Confucius said if it ain’t broke don’t fix it.

Relation Woes

Have you got time to listen to some truths, some may not be what you want to hear. But they are truths.

For one, I am subjected to having injections for my Schizophrenia, and two, if I did not, I may miss my oral treatment for it.

As I am absent minded for the most part of the day.

Yes I do have a mother who tries to remind me of taking them, but when you just do not care anymore. It becomes a chore in what is needed. I also suffer from blood clots, as I have had 2 in the last 8 years, so need to be on blood thinners. Also I have narrowed airways of the throat, in which I have telephone conversations with a doctor at the hospital nearly every 6 months.

But what about you.

Also if you have a good relationship with friend and family, then you should talk to them more often, as it will show that you are not suffering from said diagnosis. And that if asked, you should be truthful about your state of mind.

You may be listening to your inner voices, but it would be beneficial if you ignore them and speak to councillors of your condition, to make them acknowledge what steps to take next.

Inject to Not diverse

When you are little and growing up, you learn about your surroundings and the people who you see nearly daily.

But what you do not know is that them people have some secrets that they do not want the world to know.

It is that either that they are some sort of LGBTQ or they are living the life they wanted. Without regrets.

But once you start to see the changes in them, and they are happy. You feel for them. Meaning that no matter what they do you are glad that they are still alive and well.

But what if they did not show it in early age. Would you see them Take control of their lives at a tender age of OLD.

We as a humanity need to get on with people from all diverse background and live the life we and they choose.

We are only here once and we need to get along with people as a means to help one another when the time comes.

I myself thought that I was just a transvestite, and later resolved my issues with my family. Only that I do not dare to do it now.

Debt Accredited

For those of you who go by your daily lives without purchasing high valued items, I salute you. As why would you want to be paying over the odds for an item that may become obsolete in a few months time.

Well, if you are like me and paranoid about buying and buying without thinking about the consequences later. Then you should read this.

I have got a lot of debt, and find it hard to get away from. I did have about £6,500 worth with a credit card company and another £2,500 with another credit card company, on top off the I had bills to pay.

So my mother got me to finance the payments to pay back the debt.

I no longer have the £2,500 debt and now only owe the one credit card company £2,000.

I thought my troubles were over until I purchased some more on finance.

Granted, I can pay this but if I was not paying I would be in great trouble.

If I were you, I would only buy things that have a high price and save the money to purchase them. It would be simpler that way. And save the hassle of paying instalments for a period of time.

If I could live my life again, would I go into debt. No, and here’s why, Why would you want to fork out x amount either weekly or monthly, for a few years and then need to upgrade, Yes it would pay to have a purchase and then upgrade if it was on a plan that allowed this, I.E phone contracts.

But what if that product did not allow this, then you would have to thing is it worth it and how to make money from that high valued price tag.

If it was a camera, you could sell your photos.

If it was a computer, could you decode video as a freelancer.

These are the options you have to think about when extravagantly purchasing products.

So if you see something you fancy and are able to afford it straight out, I would wait until prices comes down and continue to save. So that if you did purchase it, you would still have money to spare.